man. i hate flights(though this was only for 2 hours). i feel screwed, tired, edgy, irritated, distracted, fuzzy and all their appropriate synonyms. blah. planning the trip in May- so many things to consider, so many things to be done, not much tme left. lectures to webcast and tutorials to do- the usual. same shit different day. making much more money- yes, cny is the best time to do it, plus selling stuff on ebay. violin assessment in 1 week- no comment.
anyway, the bangkok trip was good. getting away from whatever. escapism. its like a drug, once you discover it, the more you desire it. and its never enough. i suppose its good though. to escape, to pretend. sometimes, it makes everything seems easier to deal with and you worry less, are happy more often. me and shoz went to watch the transvies there. some were really convincing. actually i felt sad for them. they have to resort to doing what they are doing to make a living, if you could call showing your body, and having to be leered at by lecherous uncles a living. i mean, what can push someone to such a demeaning level. either you have to be really delusional, or seriously in denial and hence able to separate their lives on street and on stage. but then, i began to think on the contrary. its rather brave actually. to know already once they've made the change, the type of life that they have to lead, the things they would have to put up with and the finality of it all. the moment they under the knife, that's it. their desire have to be so so strong. their wanting for that have to beyond anything i can even begin to imagine. in a certain strange way, i almost admire them. to have such a strong wanting for something must feel incredible.
i guess. ~bigSis (alive and kicking as you see. well, maybe not that kicking)
Saturday, February 05, 2005
oh! i forgot to mention.. we suprised shumz early on the 2nd feb cuz her birthday was on the 3rd feb. we (elvin, jo, div, tiff, shellz, isaac, quentin, tristan, betrand and serene
) met at shumz house and hid in her room.. so when she entered.. she would be suprised/shocked. cool la! we spent the whole evening looking for a present for her! so sweet of us right! ah.. hats off to serene.. the organiser.. who delayed from 8 to 9.15 and finally 10! but she did well! shumz was suprised.. so i'm happy about that! oh! it was tze and josh's birthdays too.. so i wished them happy birthday! everyone is so old! hahaha... oh! passed my basics (yay!).. gonna start 1st practical lesson on 14th feb.. oh! and.. have job for month of march! yay to that! money come in!!!! i need a job for 2 weeks.. after CNY.. yes yes.. v short term.. but i'd like one!!! paying for cello, ballet, driving AND living expenses is taking its toil on my bank account!! wait a minute.. did i ALREADY mention my finiancial woes?? i think so..
~LilSis~ (my sis is dead.. again.. as usual)
Friday, February 04, 2005
i am not a pig.. although i HAVE been sleeping from 6-9.. i am NOT a pig. Contrary to popular belief. today, i volunteered at a pet shelter. i had to clean out the cat pen.. there were 30 pens in all. managed to only clean out.. half. Serious! it was tough ok! the cats are so attention demanding.. they mew and mew.. and stepping on their tails and paws was not an easy thing to avoid (come on la!! they were lying all about! they made walking about soo difficult!). Some of the cats were really adorable.. they would walk around your legs and scratch their heads on your shoes.. haha.. my laces were untied.. so when i walked about.. the laces flapped around and the cats thought it was some pounce-on-the-lace game.. which made walking around even MORE difficult! there were the agressive ones.. who scratched me and bit jo-ann! haha.. jo and i kept scolding the cats for ill-treating each other/us.. naughty naughty cats (some la!).. oh! the worst parts.. cats with digestive problems.. diarrhoe.. what not.. the poop stinks and is not easy to clean (wet/soggy/lumpy).. the litter boxes were so full.. flies were a regular sight. Not only that.. the smell of ammonia is worse than a bad chem prac day. haha.. but they are cute la.. attention seeking.. they are so lonely.. i guess any company is welcome! i felt like i was doing housekeeping... haha.. each time i stepped on a paw/tail.. i would say.. sorry sayang! why you stand there dear.. girl! dont stand there la! why you want to stand near the shit?... hi babes! housekeeping!.. yeah.. went a little kuku talking to the cats.. haha.. jo was no better! i could hear her talking to them toO! after that..we hung out at the dogs area! so many mongrels (cross breeds would be a better word) !!! they also like company!!! wow.. brought them out for a walk.. they were nice about it.. no fast paced running.. being responsive to tugs and jerks.. haha... the dogs were really hot (as in temperature wise)... but they were friendly! nice.. patient.. and not TOO loud! hahaha..oh! passed my basic theory which means i can learn how to drive! oh.. taking maual.. private.. haiz.. i have to pay it out of my own pocket.. so i find the cheapest means!! ahhaha... with ballet/cello.. man! i'll dread the start of each month! i need to M.M.M make more money.. HOW!!! hahahah.. oh.. i did a waitressing job at suntec last saturday.. i was working with stacey and tim and henry. Stacey is 16.. currently waiting for her O's.. she was from CHIJ-TP. cool! she's cute.. and easy to talk to! tim.. ahh.. AC..sc6.. he's a pro already.. he did banquets a few times before! so.. he was good to work with. and the times the trays were piled up and i had to carry them (stacey is smaller than me
) lucky i met tim on the way and he took over. henry henry.. he's also 16.. gan eng seng sec.. nice boy.. quiet.. shy.. but efficient.. didnt talk to him much.. he smiles a lot.. has a friendly face! hahaha...oh and yay! i have a job for the month of marcH! haha! it pays.. so i am not complaining! i just need to have enough to survive the month of feb.. AND.. hopefully have some other random jobs!! i really need my bank to be having an upward trend.. not a stagnant state.. or worse (the horror!) a downward trend.. i just splashed $63 on books.. and a swenson's meal this afternoon.. cant spend anymore.. REALLY! oh boy.. the woes of finances! ahahha.. till next time then..
~LilSis~
