in my attempt to feebly prove that i am NOT a bimbo.. i shall write an entry about change..

shuowen's second voice: heehee.. despo! trying to prove smth, righT!!! whahahahahs

shuowen: okay... pyscho.. shucks.. i sound like i need therapy.. forgive me.. this is a once in a long while kind of entry. embrace it!

*Discliamer: all writings are based on author's own thoughts and opinions. They are not meant to challenge or prove anything.. they are just an expression of what she feels.

Change

Strange thing is this, change.. i was talking to a friend of mine.. and she started to talk about how she always fell ill and felt weak and usually, she would be upset with so-and so.. or hate someone.. hate.. such a strong word..

so, i started saying.. well.. to make yourself stronger, you can exercise more, eat better, or take supplements. Seriously.. if you are really so upset about being weak and sickly. DO SOMETHING! Dont just talk and say you mean it when you dont mean to do it (yes yes, i know i always complain about being fat, and that i should exercise more.. but the whole issue is that i dont really start an exercise regime.. cuz.. seriously.. i'm happier without the exercise.. so there! bring on the fat man! one day, if i really am serious abt the weight.. i WILL exercise.. it HAS happened..).

btw.. the exercise will produce endorphins, and you will become happy! and you wont find yourself hating people so much.. but more importantly.. its up to you to choose how you accept people.. hate them.. be angry and stay angry.. learn to forgive and accept.. and you become a better person.. more accepting and loving, less judgemental

so.. she asked.. how can i be so optmistic? i say.. life is short.. if life throws you lemons, make lemonade.. make the most of it.. if you are sad and angry and wallowing in self pity all the time, people around you wont like to be around you anymore, cuz all you are is sad energy.. and over time, as you lose your friends, you will become more sad and angry.

ultimately, the choice is for you to recognise the need to change yourself.. and change for the better.. cuz 'for things to change, i must start with myself'. and how do you start changing yourself? well.. for one, evaluate the company you keep.. are you all just a bunch of whining, complaining group? well, certainly, that does not bring out the best in you. and isnt feeling self-worth more joyous than anything in this world? that, you feel that you are doing something with your life, and not just going through the motions of this clockwork called life. so.. change the company you keep.. for if you are always sad together, that really means there is not much point in living life, is there.. imagine.. everyday.. trot down to kopitiam with a heavy heart.. plonk yourself down.. with your friends.. complain complain complain from sun up to sun down.. and trudge back home.. now burdened with not only your worries.. but also your friends worries.. that never seem to end.. you sleep restlessly.. wake up unrested and tired.. trot back down to the kopitiam.. and complain complain complain.. seriously.. it is a cycle.. and its up to you to recognise that this is NOT HELPING and that all u are doing is living in the past.

LOOK TO THE FUTURE! its so much brighter than you think. Your future is what you make of it.. it has yet to happen.. it has yet to occur. WALK THE STEPS THAT WILL LEAD YOU TO YOUR DREAMS! change.. life IS about change. There is never a day that occurs twice.. never a moment to be captured twice.. never a disaster to strike the same way it has before.. its up to you to make a difference in YOUR life.. you have one life..

live it

day by day

cheerfully

helping those around you

dividing the sorrows

multiplying the joys

cuz..remember, that no matter how hard life seems,

The harder you fall, the higher you will bounce up.

~lilsis~